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Ugh

I stayed home from work yesterday because I had a migraine. It wasn't just one of those ones where I take my meds and sleep for a bit and it goes away. Oh no, this one had to be a doozy! Vomiting, light sensitivity, you name it, plus some other things that I won't mention. I could barely lift my head off the pillow.

Yesterday was Tuesday and Monday was a public holiday. Basically our provincial anniversary. So of course our office was closed. I get to work today and there's about forty emails waiting for me and almost as many voicemails.

Being the worrywart I am, I had an anxiety attack on my way to work, worrying about what the customers might say. It was all for nothing. They were all pretty understanding and sympathetic when I told them exactly why I was off sick.

I hate that I still get these little moments sometimes. I wish I could stop stressing out about things.

But it does occur to me that there must be something wrong in a job where I can have an anxiety attack because I'm away sick for one day and worrying about the reception I might get. I've never had it in this job before.

Oh, and only two of my colleagues asked me how I was feeling even though an email was sent round yesterday telling people I was off sick. (They do that). Mind you, it was pretty obvious I still wasn't 100 percent as I was quite shaky and apparently very pale. This was one of those migraines that will take me a few days to get over. Damn, I hate those kinds.

Anyway, I get home and all's ok, go out to the supermarket and see my friend and former neighbour and we had a good little chat and then I see one of the supermarket workers who has always been such a helpful guy. He grabs my basket off me and scans my stuff, in the self-checkout, mind you and we're just having a good old laugh. The rest of my day might have been sucky but he made up for it.

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mari2anne
Jan. 29th, 2014 09:32 am (UTC)
I am glad your migraine got better; I know how awful they can be.
Although vomiting has never happened to me during a migraine, my stomach feels like it's in my throat the whole time. It's usually my first realization that my 'headache' is not a sinus (I get those, too) headache but a migraine.

I don't get them as often as I used to for which I am very grateful. I don't really know why because the stress in my life
seems to have multiplied so much, I've had a few minor panic attacks in the last couple of years. I worry a lot about my work too; I think it's just in some people's nature. I've tried not to, which this month is horrible. I've missed a lot of work because my husband has been very ill. And the mess on my desk gets worse every day. I will say though my co-workers and bosses have been very understanding, so maybe that's what is keeping me from totally freaking out.

Wow, I didn't mean to go on a rant. Just wanted to say I understand a little bit the pressure you feel and that I hope you stay well...

☺♥☺♥☺

Sending hugs...

Edited at 2014-01-29 09:34 am (UTC)
phoenixnz
Jan. 29th, 2014 04:40 pm (UTC)
I think my anxiety was caused by the fact there is no one to cover the phones for me if I'm away, unless we get a temp in, so of course that can create problems with the customers. I really wish the calls could be diverted to the other call centre.
ctbn60
Jan. 29th, 2014 03:08 pm (UTC)
Its nice that the two asked you how you were feeling. They were concerned. you should try and be friendly with them they showed some interest! Migraines suck! Fell better hon!
phoenixnz
Jan. 29th, 2014 04:42 pm (UTC)
One I work directly with and the other is a very nice lady and I'm always chatting with them. The rest ... sigh. I don't know why it's changed in just the last few months.

Migraines definitely suck!
bradygirl_12
Jan. 29th, 2014 04:28 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

Boy, I understand migraines!

I think you should take the positive out of the fact that two people expressed concern at the office. Don't worry about the others. Co-workers are just that: co-workers. If you get along with them, you're lucky, but people are just focused on their jobs and trying to get ahead. The two people who showed interest are people to get friendlier with, just a smile or a "How was your vacation?" kind of thing. Don't take anything too personally. You'll never be bosom pals with co-workers but you could be friendly acquaintances. :)
phoenixnz
Jan. 29th, 2014 04:44 pm (UTC)
The thing is, it used to be different. More of them were friendlier. It just seems to have changed lately. All the more reason for me to keep looking for another job.
josephina_x
Feb. 3rd, 2014 12:06 am (UTC)
*hugs*
phoenixnz
Feb. 4th, 2014 05:12 am (UTC)
Hugs are always appreciated. Hugs right back. :D
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